ENOUGH

Expectations. The very word can evoke a sense of failure, disappointment, and insecurity. I often set expectations, knowingly or unknowingly. Then more often than not they are unmet, unreachable, or inconceivable based on the situation. Sometimes my expectations are based on the norm, based on dreams, or on convictions. Lately I have found myself in this funk of personal disappointment. Be it my prayer life isn't "long enough," my daughter isn't physically strong enough, by marriage isn't fun enough, my friendships aren't deep enough.... but who is to measure.

I have been so focused on measuring "enough" that I haven't counted the many blessings that God has given me. I am striving to shift my focus. What has God done to bless me beyond my worth? He has given me the most wonderful man to grow old with, to challenge my faith, to complement my weaknesses, to partner in parenthood. He has blessed us with a beautiful, fun-loving daughter. I have family and friends who love me more than I deserve. Ultimately, he desires a relationship with me. The creator of the universe, the God who saved me from myself, wants me. ME. Shouldn't that be ENOUGH!

So I am challenging myself to be thankful in all I do, and put things into perspective. Everything I have, every relationship, each new day day, every material possession is an undeserved blessing. God is enough.

That's a negative, Mommy

We began implementing "Baby Sign Language" into our daily conversation with Bailey when she was around 6 months old. After doing some research, speaking with other mothers, and getting information from the library; we selected the words that we wanted to utilize. Things such as mommy, daddy, more, ball, eat, milk, yes, no, all done..... words that are used several times each day. While at times it felt funny and awkward, we decided to stick with it. What could it hurt??

Recently we have begun to see some comprehension through our "conversations" with Bailey. It is wonderful to know when she either wants more or is finished, is tired, or is just a "big girl" at the moment. However, there are days where everything is a "negative, Mommy." While we are a far cry from complete understanding, it has been rewarding to see the gradual progress. I know some of this is just common sense communication, like yes and no, but I am excited to see the progression of her communication abilities with signing.

But as of today: That's a negative, Mommy.......

1000 Books

While cruising our local library, I discovered a program offered for children of pre-school age. "1000 Books before Kindergarten" is a program for children ages 0-5 years whose goal is to aid children in literacy, vocabulary, and to develop a love for reading. What a great program for our children in such an over-stimulated, technology-driven society. Michael and I have had such fun reading to Bailey the past 9 months. We are thoroughly enjoying our trips to the library to select books for the coming week. Our wish list of books to add to Bailey's permanent library has also begun to increase.

I would love some recommendations. What were your favorite childhood must-reads?

Baby Babbles

Our Little Miss has been babbling for months now. All of it just noise. Sometimes loud, sometimes soft, sometimes it comes out in the form of raspberries, sometimes just yelling. Noise......but the most joyful noise to our ears. Or so we thought.

Should you walk into this house this week, you will find two joyous parents!! Two weeks ago she uttered the word "Dada" for the first time. She said it with intensity, and repeated it until she had Michael's attention. Our hearts just jumped for joy at the sound. Saturday, she added "Mama" to her vocabulary. There is nothing better than to leave her sight and hear the sound of your daughter calling your name with her little arms reaching out to you. My heart just swells with love! My how the "noise" has changed! What began as quiet whispers has now evolved into laughter, song, and two of the most precious words ever spoken!

Parenting and Responsibility

As Christians, our lives are full of responsibility, conviction and self improvement. We are constantly being observed, and this rings especially true with our children. It is imperative that we are conscious of our words and actions; as children are like sponges. I have heard many times that children are often a reflection of their parents. What a tremendous responsibility this is. We are molding this little life by our daily conduct. This thought alone has brought me to my knees time and time again.


This has resulted in a deeper awareness of my imperfections. It is amazing what God will reveal when you let him. I can be impatient, selfish, and (admittedly) demanding to name a few things. While these might be considered minor infractions, I have to ask myself if they are qualities I want my daughter to acquire? So my journey has brought me to a point of vulnerability like I have never felt before. I am searching for accountability and prayers as I embark on this painful quest.

To those who have been there, any advice?